Many lessons learned…

Ok, how many times do you think you have someone figured out and then they say or do something or NOT do something and you realize that maybe you don’t know that person as well as you thought?  I don’t get it and maybe, just maybe that’s not how it’s suppose to be.  But I’m the kind of person that what you see, is what you get!  I don’t try to be someone I’m not.  With me, you pretty much KNOW who I am.   If I’m your friend, I’m a good friend.  I’m loyal and always there for you!  But when someone I feel acts out of character, I just don’t know how to respond to it.

I can’t tell you just how many things God is showing me during this time of being laid up. This is just one of them.  It’s amazing what He’s teaching me.  God’s been dealing with me on all levels of my spiritual walk.  There’s not a whole lot you can do while you have your foot up in the air, so it’s been very humbling to say the least.  I’ve even realized just who really are my friends and those that I THOUGHT were my friends who really aren’t after all.

I’m learning my strengths and weaknesses!  This is not easy!  Yes, keep showing me Lord my strengths, but please don’t show me my vulnerabilities and weaknesses!  😛 

While God is stretching me and growing me, I am learning that I have not yet by any means been refined yet.  I AM a work in progress.  I am actually liking what the Lord is showing me lately even if it does hurt at times.  Here are just a few things I’ve jotted down in my  journal that I’d like to share.

*being impatience – this is not easy for me, if I want something, I want it now and puu-leaseeeee people don’t get in my way!  But now, I’ve been taking a different approach and rightfully so, I mean I can’t even walk!  I HAVE to be patient, with healing, getting around, with my husband, my kids, everything!

*being judgemental – I know I’ve always been a bit judgmental and really not in a bad way, just not a right way!  It seems that I had opinions about everything and I sure wanted you to know it.  *LOL*  But now, I am stopping myself and rethinking if I should be judging this or that.  Most often times, I should not and I leave it alone!  I can NOT literally tell you just how freeing this has been to me.  I can’t control other people and what they do or don’t do.  I can’t tell them how to act. I can only be responsible for ME!  How am I acting.  So now when I’m tempted to fall in a trap to judge I think of those stickers you see on trucks that say, “How am I driving?”  Call 1-800- blah blah blah and I think….”How am I acting?”  Call 1-800-Go to God!

*being a complainer!  Ok…this is HUGE!!  I have been catching myself whine and complain about the littlest of things.  Why I ask?  WHY?  Because I can?  Because it makes me feel better?  These are not valid reasons!  I started listening to myself and I did not like what I was hearing!  There are so many others in worse situations and circumstances than me.  KNOCK IT OFF KACY!  LOL

I know these are just a few, but these are everyday things that I know I’m not alone in thinking and doing.  We all are impatient, judgemental and complain sometimes.  But I want to do these things in a productive and constructive way.  I want to strive to be a better person as I grow older.  We aren’t too old to learn or change.  And everyday, I can’t wait to see what the Lord is going to show me next.  I may not always  like to know, but in the end, it makes me better!

OK, on a HAPPY DO-DE HAPPY MOMENT!….*drum roll puuuuleeaseeeeeeeeeeee*  I got my Cricut Expressions machine yesterday!  I have not yet had a chance to get it out and play with it, but I have all of Spring Break and I can’t wait to get started creating.  Come back to see more projects in the coming days!

One last note!  I went to the electro-physiologist.  Here’s the scoop.  He says the my arrhythmias look like they are coming from the left side of my heart.  He’s given me new medication for the time being and in 6 months if I’m not better, then they will do surgery again.  They are taking their time because having surgery in the left side of the heart is very risky and not easy.  So for now, I’m ok to try something new.  I am even still praying for healing altogether!  So we’ll see.  Thank you so much for those of you that have kept praying.  It really means a lot.  I’ll keep you all updated.

Ok, better run, I’ve felt sick ever since I got home.  Have a great weekend everyone!

Hugs,

Kacy

PS:  Join me on Skype!  I’m kacy.smith  I’d love to cam chat~!

11 Responses to “Many lessons learned…”


  1. 1Tammy

    I’m so proud of ya gurlfriend! I know God is going to do a mighty work in you during this time of being laid up. Let Him work! Love ya! xo

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    Kacy Reply:

    ((Tammy)) Gosh, could you imagine being laid up all this time and not learn a thing?? LOL That would be such a waste! tounge 😛 Love ya tons!

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  2. 2Sue

    ty1 for sharing from your heart so beautifully today, Kac! God works in mysterious ways huh? Took breaking your ankle for Him to have this concentrated time with you.

    Your lessons are ones that are a good “refresher” for me so thanks for sharing that!

    Have fun with your new toy… even though I have NO idea what it is 😉

    And… we’ll keep praying for that heart of yours but in the meantime, we’ll hope the new meds help stabilize things for you!

    Love ya Kacy heartbeat

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  3. 3Barbara

    Hi Kacy, I like what you wrote about being constantly formed by God! I feel very often, too, that He wants to teach me things (patience – big issue!!! aaarrrggghhh )

    I hope you are having a good weekend – even with the “foot up in the air” winkie

    HUGS

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    Kacy Reply:

    Hi Barbara! So nice to see you visiting! Yes, my ole’ foot is mostly in the air! LOL I have to say I’m getting pretty use to it! Hope you have a good weekend!

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  4. 4Jennifer

    Haha!! LOVE that bumper sticker idea! 1-800-Go to God :2thumbs:

    Sounds like you’re managing to keep yourself busy Ms.Laid-Up! Glad to hear it’s been a good productive time though… Good for you gal headhug

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    Kacy Reply:

    ((Jenn)) Hey gurl! I tried to visit you, but the link wouldn’t come up, just the doteasy site. 🙁 Anything new? I just can’t seem to find you bookmarked on this laptop! Did I read somewhere you’ll be seeing Jana next week! I sure hope we can meet sometime! I’ve missed you and hope your job is going well! Any more drama? *wink*

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    Jennifer Reply:

    Hey 🙂

    Nah, it’s not you, it’s just doteasy… they’re having issues (grrrrr…) Hopefully it’ll be up soon so it doesn’t appear as though I’ve vanished off the web again LOL!

    Yes, Jana and her family are heading this way next week… they should be here sometime Wednesday evening, and will be hanging out here until that following Tuesday morning. We decided we liked each other face to face too (LOL) when we met at her place a couple months ago, so they’re heading here for her kids spring break and will be spending Easter here.

    I may have to have you come this way for a spell… apparently you being there in Cali isn’t doing you very well…. too dangerous on your body inside and out 😉 I’d have to put you under 100% supervision 😉

    As for work, I’m just letting it all fall off my shoulders. The 23rd of this month is my last “official” day at work… I may check in there every now and then and make sure the girl I’m training for my position knows all the ins and outs of what she’s supposed to be doing. Things have just been so busy and hectic at work that I’m hoping she’s not flabbergasted by it all and can understand everything in the little time she still has me there to ask questions. Anxiously counting down the days until the 23rd… especially with Madison here keeping me on my toes from the moment I walk through the door 😉

    Hope you had a feel-good day 🙂

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  5. 5Susan

    Hi Kacy, I enjoyed your post today. I feel like I am being pulled in different directions. I am glad our paths are going in the same direction. God willing, we will meet someday. Have a great Sunday! Hugs huggg

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  6. 6Julie

    Wonderful post! You’ve given me lots to think about. 🙂

    The heart surgery sure sounds scary… You are a very strong person.

    thumbups

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  7. 7Tracey

    Hi Kacy! Sounds like you are making the most of being laid up! Hope you are back to your old self soon! ((BIG HUGS)) P.S. Love your header…too cute!

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